no mood to study? suck it up and get to it!!

okay so i was online searching for ways to make myself study and i found all sorts of b.s that i expected. stuff like "its you who decides ,not your mind" "tell your self that you are not sleepy and you wont be anymore" and "take a time out and imagine your future something successful and then you will feel like working towards it". okay i know that they all are actually some what right..okay maybe they are bang on. but that's not what an 18 year old wants to hear when she's searching for ways to keep her self from sleeping and do her studying for the day! what i wanted was some real stuff you know..like actual tips to follow, a strategy, a plan! and seriously with the guy downstairs jamming on his guitar, studying just seems even more boring than EVER!! but i have to and that's that!! i told myself-" you have just 14 days left until your exams and if you don't get through them you will be sitting with your juniors and that is just plain embarrassing!! and it will also prove all your teachers right who are hating on you because you have a fashion sense better than theirs could ever be!! so stfu and study!! yes i know it is boring as hell but hey!! at least its not like high school! at least after this you can just get a job that will actually be related to what you have been studying! and you know the job is going to pay great!! that is the only reason you agreed to do this course! so just shut up and get through this and you can take a break! just do it cause you know you want the money!" and i am one of those who can study just a little bit and get great scores! but this time its a difficult course and i will have to put in more hard work. i know it but the only thing that keeps interfering is lack of the great thing called "MOOD". well i guess i just have to suck up to it and get to studying. here's what : im gonna learn a chapter tonight, no matter what! and im gonna do it for myself because well, those pretty handbags don't come for free!!! so the time when you feel real fucked up and haven't been attending classes for days and haven't been studying at all; i promise you this- start once and then it will all be easy! its just the effort to start that is the most difficult one. but force yourself or get a friend along. pull em down and dive head first and don't you fuckin move away from it for at least an hour and then its all gonna be easy baby!